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aesc ([personal profile] aesc) wrote2009-03-25 02:27 pm

uhhhh... hi (words you will see a lot in this post: weird, bizarre)

Oh man, today is a day of weirdness.

I had the most bizarre dream last night, involving two of my best guy friends from when I was growing up (even though one of them I had never met before, I just knew we were close), Misha Collins, and a crazy Shining-type villain who committed horrible crimes using his telekinetic powers and was getting away with it, and I had to track him down.

(For the concerned: Misha did not play the villain. I know this even though I woke up without solving the case.)

I woke up slightly weirded out and dissociated, and it's only gotten worse. I went to donate blood today, discovered my hematocrit level is low (the lowest, in fact, it is possible to have and still be a donor) and I am torn between being worried--because dammit, I've been working on this for months--and being happy that at least I was not too anemic to donate. Then I almost froze to death sitting there while they drained me of vital fluids, got up and felt bizarrely okay. The emphasis here is on "bizarre" because now, almost three hours later, my right arm hurts and I'm guzzling down water and OJ and feeling like I am in a slightly different dimension than everyone else. While giving feedback on a paper I zoned out halfway through an explanation and was all wow the inside of my head makes weird noises.

So I feel kind of... strange and not of this world. Hi there, I come from another planet.

Also, I have a new header because really, being Castiel-less is sort of ridiculous. [livejournal.com profile] animotus, I was thinking of you and your awesome b/w moodiness :D :D

Hi again.

Lord, I'm standin' at the crossroads, I believe I'm sinkin' down

[identity profile] villainny.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 06:45 pm (UTC)(link)
kj;KLAJFDS;WJF;LAJSDLJFA;SLKDJF PRETTY HEADER

[identity profile] aesc.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 06:54 pm (UTC)(link)
LOOK AT HIS FAAAAACE, NNY.
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[identity profile] lenyia.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 07:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Awesome header!

[identity profile] aesc.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 07:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much! And I love your icon. Oh Cas ♥

[identity profile] animotus.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 08:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Hi there alien girl!*waves hand*
And I'm happy I'm bringing the black&white sexy back!!!We should create a b&w fest!:P
Btw,you can call me Silvia...or Sil,whatever you like!;D

[identity profile] aesc.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 08:06 pm (UTC)(link)
We should create a b&w fest!:P

Ooooooh, that would be fun!! :D :D :D

[identity profile] pennyplainknits.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 08:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Ooooh pretty!

The recent eps are killing me, and making me itch to read Good Omens again.

[identity profile] olympia-m.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 08:17 pm (UTC)(link)
your new header is gorgeous!!! wow!!!

[identity profile] insight2.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 08:23 pm (UTC)(link)
your life collides with mine

*delighted squeak*
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[identity profile] smilla02.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 08:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Ooooh! Header. PRETTY!
So not pretty the low hemoglobin. Take care of yourself, hon.

[identity profile] aesc.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 08:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!!

(And I think I may need to do that as well!)

[identity profile] aesc.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 08:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Yayyy, thank you so much! Misha makes everything automatically pretty :D

[identity profile] pennyplainknits.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 08:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Uriels comments about the angels joining with the demons to retake the earth reminded me very strongly of Crowley's belief that the apocalypse would be humans vs angels and demons.

Plus, I never really need an excuse to re read. Now if only my copy wasn't 50 miles away!

[identity profile] aesc.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 08:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh man, I do love "Headlights" (and if you don't know Dispatch, I will totally upload the song when I get home; it's awesome).

[identity profile] aesc.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 08:40 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs you!!!* I am trying!! My levels are actually better than they were in January, so I am getting somewhere, at least! They do need to be some points higher, though.

[identity profile] aesc.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 08:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Ohhh, yes, you are quite right! Even in the apocalypse as found in the Bible, things don't go too well for most people. *sigh*

The way the show has been going, with the angels/demons vs. humans, is almost gnostic in some ways... Incompetent/distant creator who screws things up, angels who can't quite be trusted, demons interested only in having humans in their clutches... Someone might have been at Elaine Pagels :D

[identity profile] pennyplainknits.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 08:55 pm (UTC)(link)
I must admit, as a pretty staunch atheist I had real doubts at the start of the season when Cas appeared. I wasn't sure what to expect, and Dean's agnosticism had always appealed to me. I was worried he'd suddenly have a miraculous conversion.

I needn't have been worried though: the way it's playing out is much more interesting, especially if you consider Anna as an agent of the unknowable workings of God.

[identity profile] insight2.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 09:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Honestly, most times I have no idea what my flist's playlists/music mixes are about. But if you can hear Cas in this song then I'm all ears.

And hey, did they not feed and water you immediately after you donated :\?

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 09:18 pm (UTC)(link)
I approve of your header. And of your dream.

I've been reading "The Worst Hard Time", a book about the dust bowl times right before I go to sleep and I've been dreaming that our place is filling up with dirt. And I wake up choking, which is from this awful cold, but it is very unnerving.

/is unnerved.

[identity profile] aesc.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 09:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Heh, I uploaded it here (http://www.box.net/shared/5man4qod1i), and there's enough electric guitar and drums in it that I think Dean would not entirely hate it. Still, it probably errs on the side of "freaking girly" and therefore earns his contempt XD
headlights
highways
your life collides with mine

leavin' our shoes behind
we cross the water
our words flow
from mouth to mouth
like fish seeking dark places
and the mist, it covers our traces, covers our faces

so long to what's done
so much time's been wasted
so many thoughts been lost on you

headlights
highways
your life collides with mine

we're stepping into shelter
moving out of shadow
we made some wrong moves
along the way
oh we might have strayed
will I forget your face
and your fluid gait
or will I stare into the stillness?
this is where I miss you
so long to what's done
so much time's been wasted
so many thoughts been lost on you

get off that exit and find the door

cold wind rushes
down on my face
smoke heats the black throat
of the chimney

the door is open,
come on inside

your life collides with mine
your life collides with mine

[identity profile] aesc.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 10:08 pm (UTC)(link)
I really wish I could have found out what happened!! Maybe it's a two-part dream and I will get the conclusion tonight :D

And I wake up choking, which is from this awful cold, but it is very unnerving.

:| :| :| That sounds like it would seriously freak me out--the choking and the context of the dream. I hope you feel better soon and you get that book finished ASAP!

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 10:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes! Tonight you'll get the conclusion, which will involve nudity. ::nods firmly:: Oh, and they'll catch the bad guy too.

The dust bowl book is quite haunting and compelling but seriously depressing, as you can imagine. I'm in serious need of fluff. Maybe I'll rewatch "Harmony" tonight. *g*

I hope you are feeling better from your blood-letting!

[identity profile] insight2.livejournal.com 2009-03-25 11:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Hee, thanks for the upload and the lyrics, mmmm 'fluid gait'.

[identity profile] aesc.livejournal.com 2009-03-26 01:18 am (UTC)(link)
Ohhhh man I hope so :D :D

[identity profile] winter-rogue.livejournal.com 2009-03-26 03:27 am (UTC)(link)
your new header is too beautiful for words.

[identity profile] aesc.livejournal.com 2009-03-26 04:38 am (UTC)(link)
:"> :"> Thank you!!