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.spn 5.14; or "urp"
Oh god what a killer week. I'm seriously, seriously exhausted. Most of it is good exhaustion, because I think my interview went well (fingers crossed, srsly), but there is some bad exhaustion too. Just back the fuck off world, okay? Honestly.
Wow, this read almost like an old-school episode to me, how the humor skews dark awfully quickly, yanked from Cupid (omg CUPID) to destiny to Famine and his general awfulness. My brain's still trying to pull all of it together.
Sam's demon blood issues I'm not surprised by, and I'm glad they're returning to them, even though I have the terrible feeling that it means one more step down the road to Detroit. He admits in 5.11 (aka Episode of Irredeemable Suck) that he's more or less perpetually angry, and I think his addiction is tied up in that anger. Whether or not he can admit that he seriously fucked up, and stay off Dean's back about bossing him around/not trusting him remains to be seen. I mean, at least this time he told Dean to leave him behind, right? (Related: if you know demons are in the area, why not draw a devil's trap in front of the door and not just move a wardrobe in front of it? ARGH. This is something that irritated me immensely.)
So Jimmy's still around? Jesus F., the poor guy. It seems kind of like, oh, the height of cruelty not only to drag him back from death, but to subject him to the horror that is an angel slowly losing his power, like almost ripping himself apart to travel back through time. I'll need to rewatch, but I hope the implication is that Cas has just inherited Jimmy's body's hungers and preferences, like hamburgers. Because otherwise... oh god, poor Jimmy. Why must everyone be fucked over for doing what they think is right on this show? Don't answer that.
Destiny and the Winchesters... again I say: Jesus F. I would have punched Cupid, too. We've gotten beaten over the head (inevitably) with the inevitability stick but this is just... John and Mary's love is the one thing I think Dean and Sam always counted on, in an odd way--especially Dean, who was old enough to remember having some of that love for himself. I wonder, too, if that love was the reason for John's obsessiveness in turning to the hunt to find out what had happened and why--although, thinking about it, I've decided that maybe, given that Dean and Sam were always meant to be hunters, John's decision might have been unforeseen--and maybe some corrective action had to be taken when he realized the truth about what Sam was.
And then Dean... oh, Dean. This episode didn't quite jive with the end of 5.13, with Dean's determination that Team Free Will is going to win out. Although, come to think of it, I can understand that, that Dean is on this painful, painful edge, between confidence and absolute despair, and in this episode he got battered with a huge revelation along the lines of his parents essentially being part of Heaven's fucked-up breeding program (which makes me wonder if vessels aren't produced the same way; that doesn't seem like something the angels would leave to chance, either), and that destiny is literally in his blood, and it's in Sam's--whether it's Sam's own blood or the demons'... There isn't enough confidence in the world to deal with that. And oh, Dean at the end :( :(
Dammit, episode, you were depressing.
Gleeful things:
-CAS ON HIS CELL PHONE ♥♥♥♥
-CAS ON HIS CELL PHONE AND DEAN ON HIS CELL PHONE AND BOTH OF THEM UP IN EACH OTHER'S PERSONAL SPACE
-the entire conversation about Cupid
-the entire conversation with Cupid, including the seriously awkward, painful hugs ("is this a fight? are we in a fight?") and Cupid calling Cas "brother"
-"what is your hunger?" even with a mouthful of hamburger he sounds sexy. Dammit, Misha.
-the poor coroner guy. He was awesome. RIP, coroner guy.
Icky things:
Oh god, serious loss of appetite even contemplating the guy and the french fries. I can't even say. Urk.
Things that piss me off:
SIX WEEKS UNTIL THE NEXT EPISODE WHAT THE FUCK.
Things that are starting to annoy me:
This is minorly wanky, but you know what? I don't care. People who whine about how they like Cas but "oh god, could he just be useful for once?"
Please stop doing it. Examine the past several episodes (for Castiel rescuing Dean and Sam from Zachariah, forcing Dean to give him the amulet, trapping Raphael, rescuing Dean from Zachariah again, helping Dean and Sam get out of Gabriel's clutches and escaping once himself, bodychecking Meg and getting himself out of Lucifer's trap, rescuing Dean and Sam from Lucifer, threatening Anna enough to get her to back off, almost killing himself to get Dean and Sam back to 1978 and then almost dying getting back again? Or am I just imagining all of that?) and compare to useless moments in which he must be rescued from the bads (turned into action figure, released from Gabriel's prison on Dean's say-so, rescued by crazy demon-blood!Sam), compare numbers, and reassess.
Look, I get that we all want more Cas. Believe me, I do. OH how I do. And I also get that we all love badass!Castiel. Hell, I do. He's one of my favorite flavors, is the tough nerdy guy with wings. But, y'know, the show makes fun of Dean and Sam all the time. Remember nut-crunches? STDs? Dean's crush on Dr. Sexy? His confession that he likes pink satin panties? Sam being groped/obsessed over by Becky? That is what the show does. Characters who can't pass the humor test and who aren't shown as vulnerable, or human, or on occasion ridiculous--and characters who can't save others and be saved in turn--usually end up dead.
In other news: I got four hours of quasi-sleep on Tuesday night, and I'm still feeling the effects. Apparently I'm not as young as I once was *sigh* On the bright side, I had a fantastically insane Dean/Cas AU/AR hallucination to keep me company through a four-hour layover in O'Hare.
Wow, this read almost like an old-school episode to me, how the humor skews dark awfully quickly, yanked from Cupid (omg CUPID) to destiny to Famine and his general awfulness. My brain's still trying to pull all of it together.
Sam's demon blood issues I'm not surprised by, and I'm glad they're returning to them, even though I have the terrible feeling that it means one more step down the road to Detroit. He admits in 5.11 (aka Episode of Irredeemable Suck) that he's more or less perpetually angry, and I think his addiction is tied up in that anger. Whether or not he can admit that he seriously fucked up, and stay off Dean's back about bossing him around/not trusting him remains to be seen. I mean, at least this time he told Dean to leave him behind, right? (Related: if you know demons are in the area, why not draw a devil's trap in front of the door and not just move a wardrobe in front of it? ARGH. This is something that irritated me immensely.)
So Jimmy's still around? Jesus F., the poor guy. It seems kind of like, oh, the height of cruelty not only to drag him back from death, but to subject him to the horror that is an angel slowly losing his power, like almost ripping himself apart to travel back through time. I'll need to rewatch, but I hope the implication is that Cas has just inherited Jimmy's body's hungers and preferences, like hamburgers. Because otherwise... oh god, poor Jimmy. Why must everyone be fucked over for doing what they think is right on this show? Don't answer that.
Destiny and the Winchesters... again I say: Jesus F. I would have punched Cupid, too. We've gotten beaten over the head (inevitably) with the inevitability stick but this is just... John and Mary's love is the one thing I think Dean and Sam always counted on, in an odd way--especially Dean, who was old enough to remember having some of that love for himself. I wonder, too, if that love was the reason for John's obsessiveness in turning to the hunt to find out what had happened and why--although, thinking about it, I've decided that maybe, given that Dean and Sam were always meant to be hunters, John's decision might have been unforeseen--and maybe some corrective action had to be taken when he realized the truth about what Sam was.
And then Dean... oh, Dean. This episode didn't quite jive with the end of 5.13, with Dean's determination that Team Free Will is going to win out. Although, come to think of it, I can understand that, that Dean is on this painful, painful edge, between confidence and absolute despair, and in this episode he got battered with a huge revelation along the lines of his parents essentially being part of Heaven's fucked-up breeding program (which makes me wonder if vessels aren't produced the same way; that doesn't seem like something the angels would leave to chance, either), and that destiny is literally in his blood, and it's in Sam's--whether it's Sam's own blood or the demons'... There isn't enough confidence in the world to deal with that. And oh, Dean at the end :( :(
Dammit, episode, you were depressing.
Gleeful things:
-CAS ON HIS CELL PHONE ♥♥♥♥
-CAS ON HIS CELL PHONE AND DEAN ON HIS CELL PHONE AND BOTH OF THEM UP IN EACH OTHER'S PERSONAL SPACE
-the entire conversation about Cupid
-the entire conversation with Cupid, including the seriously awkward, painful hugs ("is this a fight? are we in a fight?") and Cupid calling Cas "brother"
-"what is your hunger?" even with a mouthful of hamburger he sounds sexy. Dammit, Misha.
-the poor coroner guy. He was awesome. RIP, coroner guy.
Icky things:
Oh god, serious loss of appetite even contemplating the guy and the french fries. I can't even say. Urk.
Things that piss me off:
SIX WEEKS UNTIL THE NEXT EPISODE WHAT THE FUCK.
Things that are starting to annoy me:
This is minorly wanky, but you know what? I don't care. People who whine about how they like Cas but "oh god, could he just be useful for once?"
Please stop doing it. Examine the past several episodes (for Castiel rescuing Dean and Sam from Zachariah, forcing Dean to give him the amulet, trapping Raphael, rescuing Dean from Zachariah again, helping Dean and Sam get out of Gabriel's clutches and escaping once himself, bodychecking Meg and getting himself out of Lucifer's trap, rescuing Dean and Sam from Lucifer, threatening Anna enough to get her to back off, almost killing himself to get Dean and Sam back to 1978 and then almost dying getting back again? Or am I just imagining all of that?) and compare to useless moments in which he must be rescued from the bads (turned into action figure, released from Gabriel's prison on Dean's say-so, rescued by crazy demon-blood!Sam), compare numbers, and reassess.
Look, I get that we all want more Cas. Believe me, I do. OH how I do. And I also get that we all love badass!Castiel. Hell, I do. He's one of my favorite flavors, is the tough nerdy guy with wings. But, y'know, the show makes fun of Dean and Sam all the time. Remember nut-crunches? STDs? Dean's crush on Dr. Sexy? His confession that he likes pink satin panties? Sam being groped/obsessed over by Becky? That is what the show does. Characters who can't pass the humor test and who aren't shown as vulnerable, or human, or on occasion ridiculous--and characters who can't save others and be saved in turn--usually end up dead.
In other news: I got four hours of quasi-sleep on Tuesday night, and I'm still feeling the effects. Apparently I'm not as young as I once was *sigh* On the bright side, I had a fantastically insane Dean/Cas AU/AR hallucination to keep me company through a four-hour layover in O'Hare.