assessment

[aesc]

I'm putting 2008 down as one of the worst years on record.

Everything's falling apart: the world, my mind, my focus, other things that are trivial but have become important to me because they've been safe things, safe places to go to, and I can't even count on them now. I'm sorry I've not been around or been much of a friend, but merely existing has been difficult lately, as has been mustering up the desire to keep existing. It's all falling spectacularly to pieces, and I don't have the energy to pick the damn things up anymore.

So I'm going to hide for a while, possibly forever.

*crawls into hole*

Comments

[le-mot-mo.livejournal.com]

Oh H. No matter where you are or what you do, you'll always be a good friend. So don't apologize for that. Sometimes we all need to get away from the world for a while. Places we felt good, people we trusted-- once in a while all those things fall apart. But don't worry, they'll be reconstructed-- perhaps in a slightly different way then before, but still good. Always good.

Thank you for your lovely card and the wonderful message. If you ever come to my country, let me know because I'll be there. You're right-- we still haven't had the Austen conversation and we really should-- face to face. *hugs*