assessment

[aesc]

I'm putting 2008 down as one of the worst years on record.

Everything's falling apart: the world, my mind, my focus, other things that are trivial but have become important to me because they've been safe things, safe places to go to, and I can't even count on them now. I'm sorry I've not been around or been much of a friend, but merely existing has been difficult lately, as has been mustering up the desire to keep existing. It's all falling spectacularly to pieces, and I don't have the energy to pick the damn things up anymore.

So I'm going to hide for a while, possibly forever.

*crawls into hole*

Comments

[patk.livejournal.com]

You sound very exhausted and the wording of your entry leaves me with the impression that you really need someone who takes some of it from your shoulders, someone who cares and is willing to help. Please, just keep breathing for now and try to gather enough mental and emotional strength to call someone who is physically close enough to meet you face-to-face. Even if there isn't instant help, sharing how you feel with somebody who's physically close enough to talk to you is a first step. If you don't feel you have a relative or a friend emotionally close enough for that, don't hesitate to turn to a professional helper. There are options, even if you can't see them right now or if they don't hold much appeal at the moment. Things *will* get better but you have to hang on to see it happen. I know, I don't have the right to butt in like that but your entry has me very worried.