assessment

[aesc]

I'm putting 2008 down as one of the worst years on record.

Everything's falling apart: the world, my mind, my focus, other things that are trivial but have become important to me because they've been safe things, safe places to go to, and I can't even count on them now. I'm sorry I've not been around or been much of a friend, but merely existing has been difficult lately, as has been mustering up the desire to keep existing. It's all falling spectacularly to pieces, and I don't have the energy to pick the damn things up anymore.

So I'm going to hide for a while, possibly forever.

*crawls into hole*

Comments

[sleepwalkerfish.livejournal.com]

:O
That sounded awful. You're such a wonderful person, I really hope you come out of the hole when you get better - because you are going to get better. I wish I knew how to help you. I really would.
*hugs you tight*

[aesc.livejournal.com]

*hugs you very tightly* Thank you for the kind words. Things are still a bit rough, but they are starting to smooth out, and go a bit more kindly now... I'm still coming to grips with the knowledge that many difficulties are more or less permanent fixtures in my life, but even that knowledge is a good thing, I think.