assessment

[aesc]

I'm putting 2008 down as one of the worst years on record.

Everything's falling apart: the world, my mind, my focus, other things that are trivial but have become important to me because they've been safe things, safe places to go to, and I can't even count on them now. I'm sorry I've not been around or been much of a friend, but merely existing has been difficult lately, as has been mustering up the desire to keep existing. It's all falling spectacularly to pieces, and I don't have the energy to pick the damn things up anymore.

So I'm going to hide for a while, possibly forever.

*crawls into hole*

Comments

[less-star.livejournal.com]

*hugs you* Sweetheart, I've been there, it does get better, I promise!

[aesc.livejournal.com]

*hugs* The odd thing is, I have been in this precise place before (oddly enough, three years ago, almost to the date), but it's strange... I know intellectually that was a very dark period for me, but my memory is careful about attaching any specific emotions to it, like fear, sorrow, or panic, and that makes it hard to deal with the current crisis (well, current at the time I posted this; things are somewhat clearer now ♥) with any kind of perspective.

*more hugs* And thank you for the kind words; I really did need to hear them :)