assessment

[aesc]

I'm putting 2008 down as one of the worst years on record.

Everything's falling apart: the world, my mind, my focus, other things that are trivial but have become important to me because they've been safe things, safe places to go to, and I can't even count on them now. I'm sorry I've not been around or been much of a friend, but merely existing has been difficult lately, as has been mustering up the desire to keep existing. It's all falling spectacularly to pieces, and I don't have the energy to pick the damn things up anymore.

So I'm going to hide for a while, possibly forever.

*crawls into hole*

Comments

[hilarytamar.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. I wish I didn't recognize your description. I'll add to the broken record chorus here: talk to somebody. Or don't talk, because sometimes rehearsing the whole damned thing is too much work, but just spend some time with them. It won't magically make everything better, but it may make a couple of hours of the day a little less sucky, give you a little breathing room for a while, or if nothing else just a change – something else to think about, somewhere else to be, whatever.

I know when I've felt like that, I just couldn't be bothered to try to find somebody to talk to, because if I had the energy or the concentration to do that, or if I knew how to fix it, I wouldn't be having the problem in the first place. You've talked to us, though, and we're willing to listen, I swear. If you don't have the energy to do any more, maybe you could try just copying & pasting this post into an email to somebody and hitting send, and let them take it from there. Anybody in your address book will do – you wouldn't just watch somebody hurting, whether you know them or not, if you could help, and your friends won't do that either.

Or come back to us, and let us remind you that we like you – we'll tell you it as often as you want, whenever you want.