one thing that makes me really heart-clenchy happy

[aesc]

I am kind of crummy-feeling today, victim to the most recent campus-wide virus and general exhaustion following two weeks of (IMHO) very unnecessary stress.

But I was thinking over one thing last night before the cough medicine kicked in, and then I thought about it this morning while slogging through the rain/sleet/snow to class.


That Rodney calls John by his first name now. After three years of rank and/or last name, John sounds so much more intimate and makes Rodney sound so much more vulnerable because it seems like he saves it for when, e.g., he's pleading with John in "Miller's Crossing" or worried for him in "Harmony" and I just... My heart! What it goddamn does to my heart! It makes it do this weird meep-clench-eeeee thing that I didn't think my cranky, slightly cynical 29-year-old heart has ever done before in its life.

I can't even be reasonable or coherent about it, I LOVE IT THAT MUCH.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I know that I've read Rodney saying John in a million billion fanfics, but in canon... I am sorry, but that just makes me excessively joyful. Oh, the two of them :>

*meep-clench-eeee's happily*

Comments

[omglawdork.livejournal.com]

Dude, for serious! I am the same. It both freaks me out and gives me great joy when he uses the "John," because I'm just not accustomed to it and I think I might love it a little too much, you know? After so long, it's just like you said - it just sounds so intimate and vulnerable. *loves*

[aesc.livejournal.com]

It both freaks me out and gives me great joy when he uses the "John," because I'm just not accustomed to it and I think I might love it a little too much

Oh yes yes! For all that I've read it in zillions of fics, it's one thing to read and another thing to hear him say it. I have to say that it threw me at first, but now every time I think about it, I love it a little more :">

[amberlynne.livejournal.com]

So much love. *hand over heart swoony type thing*

[aesc.livejournal.com]

*collapses on the Fangirl Fainting Couch with you*

[neevebrody.livejournal.com]

it this weird meep-clench-eeeee thing

Well, NOW I know what to call that feeling I get when I hear that "John."

It's the intimacy of it that I love and that their actually giving us that.

[aesc.livejournal.com]

Well, NOW I know what to call that feeling I get when I hear that "John."

It's about as accurate as I can get :D It's a sensation that defies description, I think.

It's the intimacy of it that I love and that their actually giving us that.

*meep-clench-eeeee!*

[villainny.livejournal.com]

Hee, I love it when I know so exactly what someone means.

:D

[aesc.livejournal.com]

*dons hazmat suit for hugs!*

[tex.livejournal.com]

They made us wait for that, for so long, like you said. And it STILL isn't old. I don't think it ever will be.

[aesc.livejournal.com]

And it STILL isn't old. I don't think it ever will be.

If it ever is, I will turn in my remaining supply of estrogen and my Fangirl Association of the World card :D

[sloganeer.livejournal.com]

It still gets me every damn time. Like embarrassing-noises-and-flailing-of-hands-gets-me.

[aesc.livejournal.com]

YES. Even thinking about it! *is joyfully pathetic*

one thing that makes me really heart-clenchy happy

[maxinemayer.livejournal.com]

You guys so cheer me up! Thanks!
Love, max

Re: one thing that makes me really heart-clenchy happy

[aesc.livejournal.com]

You're welcome! We all need cheering up now and then :>

[thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com]

Yes yes yes! It always means something deep when Rodney says it, whether he's pleading or scared or whatever and it's the way he says it all deep and serious and it makes my guts go all twisty.

::takes deep breath::

[aesc.livejournal.com]

and it's the way he says it all deep and serious and it makes my guts go all twisty.

Yes yes yes a thousand times yes! It just, oh *flaps* Oh, my heart. Oh, my heart and many of its adjacent organs!

[mollymoon.livejournal.com]

That's so cute of you.

My husband and I have a game now during SGA where when something slashy between McKay and Sheppard happens (ie things I'd expect to see my lj friends comment on) we race to call it out.

And since I haven't gotten around to say it anywhere else, can I just say that if Ronon had to go to someone other than ME, at least he's looking at another Wisconsin girl. Booyah ;)

[aesc.livejournal.com]

My husband and I have a game now during SGA where when something slashy between McKay and Sheppard happens (ie things I'd expect to see my lj friends comment on) we race to call it out.

This season, that must be almost once every three minutes, oh my God. *is inordinately pleased by the slash-to-runtime ratio*

can I just say that if Ronon had to go to someone other than ME, at least he's looking at another Wisconsin girl. Booyah ;)

\o/ Ohhh those Wisconsin girls ;)

[beeej.livejournal.com]

It's like they're doing that on purpose. Like, they made us wait SO LONG for it, and now that they've finally gone there, they still use it very carefully. Rodney only says, "John" when it's important to him to make that connection. And, yeah...*meep-clench-eeee* :D

[aesc.livejournal.com]

Like, they made us wait SO LONG for it, and now that they've finally gone there, they still use it very carefully.

Yes! I love that, like, it isn't every episode, but just in those moments where Rodney needs to say John's name because it's important, and because John's importance to him is making itself felt.

[girly-curl-3.livejournal.com]

meep-clench-eeeee is the perfect description. ♥

[aesc.livejournal.com]

\o/ \o/ It is as close as I can get! I was just thinking about it last night and, well... meep-clench-eeee! went my heart.

[winkingstar.livejournal.com]

meep-clench-eeee --> Yes, that is it exactly! The best approximation of the noise I make on Friday nights that makes my housemates look at me funny when they wander through the living room.

Rodney saying "John" with so much meaning really is just about the best thing in the world. ♥

[aesc.livejournal.com]

Rodney saying "John" with so much meaning really is just about the best thing in the world. ♥

It really really really is!!

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

Christ yes. The only person I ever talk to about SGA is my housemate Matt, who, whenever I squee about Rodney's use of 'John' just looks at me, perplexed, and says "But... it's his name. As though it means nothing... sigh...

We know better though.

[aesc.livejournal.com]

"But... it's his name. As though it means nothing... sigh...

There's just no educating some people! *headshake*

[sulien77.livejournal.com]

*grin* So glad I'm not the only one who has that reaction! When I first heard Rodney say "John" in that way in "Adrift", the dogs were howling a mile away I squeed so loud. I still have that reaction, but at least I can control the volume now.

[aesc.livejournal.com]

So glad I'm not the only one who has that reaction!

Ohhhhhhh, I am fairly sure neither you nor I were alone :D

I still have that reaction, but at least I can control the volume now.

Because of the roommate, I've learned to bottle it up, though sometimes there are hugely stupid, helpless grins and small noises that break through.

[pollitt.livejournal.com]

Yes! Exactly! I heard it the first time and I think, no, *know* I stopped breathing, because... God, John. And the way Rodney says it... It's like the Eskimo word for snow, every time he says it there's another meaning, emotion, feeling.

[aesc.livejournal.com]

I heard it the first time and I think, no, *know* I stopped breathing, because...

I almost missed it, even though I knew it was coming :D But the times after, whenever Rodney says it, OH I just want to hug him.

[hermionemalfoy.livejournal.com]

It's a lot more meaningful to have waited so long for it (uh, the name thing), and even now he seems to wait for the appropriate time. EEEE. Fangirl glee. I'm liking S4 a *lot* more than S3--and not just because of that.

[aesc.livejournal.com]

I tend to become a bit stupid when I hear it :"> :"> Something about Rodney saying John (like a lot of things about the show, actually) turns me into a thirteen-year-old girl.

[toft-froggy.livejournal.com]

It makes me happy every time I think about it. Like, grin-widely-on-public-transport happy. YAY. Feel better soon!

[aesc.livejournal.com]

I may feel lousy, but just reading all of the responses to this and Cate's loveSGA! post makes me haaaaappy!!!

[kimberweeme.livejournal.com]

I had the crappiest two-meetings-of-doom sort of day at work, and it warms my heart to come home to ruminations on why this show is so amazing.

I adore it whenever Rodney says John. It makes the emotions more intense, makes the moment stronger. It is beautiful.

(So last weekend I went to another Monster Truck Rally (I know! *facepalm*) and there was a Batman truck! That looked like the Batmobile! And I could totally picture John driving it. Can't you see it?)

[aesc.livejournal.com]

I had the crappiest two-meetings-of-doom sort of day at work, and it warms my heart to come home to ruminations on why this show is so amazing.
Yayy!!!! I love that the same thing happens to me sometimes... I'm in a terrible mood (or sick) and reading people enthusing about my show makes me feel so much better. *flaps joyfully*

(So last weekend I went to another Monster Truck Rally (I know! *facepalm*) and there was a Batman truck! That looked like the Batmobile! And I could totally picture John driving it. Can't you see it?)

Heee!! I can! Oh SGA, you bring the crack, you really do :>

[ladyoflisquill.livejournal.com]

Every time canon!Rodney calls him John, he really means 'I love you'! (In my head at least. There is no other way to explain how much joy it gives me.)

[aesc.livejournal.com]

Every time canon!Rodney calls him John, he really means 'I love you'!

You know it!!!! *swoons!*

[hellpenguin.livejournal.com]

like that time in 'Travelers' when rodney loses john's signal and goes "Sheppard? John? JOHN!" like 'fuck appearances i love this man'

[aesc.livejournal.com]

*MEEP-CLENCH-EEEEE*