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assessment

I'm putting 2008 down as one of the worst years on record.

Everything's falling apart: the world, my mind, my focus, other things that are trivial but have become important to me because they've been safe things, safe places to go to, and I can't even count on them now. I'm sorry I've not been around or been much of a friend, but merely existing has been difficult lately, as has been mustering up the desire to keep existing. It's all falling spectacularly to pieces, and I don't have the energy to pick the damn things up anymore.

So I'm going to hide for a while, possibly forever.

*crawls into hole*

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That sounded awful. You're such a wonderful person, I really hope you come out of the hole when you get better - because you are going to get better. I wish I knew how to help you. I really would.
*hugs you tight*

*hugs you very tightly* Thank you for the kind words. Things are still a bit rough, but they are starting to smooth out, and go a bit more kindly now... I'm still coming to grips with the knowledge that many difficulties are more or less permanent fixtures in my life, but even that knowledge is a good thing, I think.

I may not comment here very often, but I hope so very much that you will manage to crawl out of this black hole at some point. Please, please, please go and talk to someone you're close to (a family member, a RL friend, an online pal) or a doctor or counsellor you're more or less comfortable with. Do ask for help. You sound as though you needed it sorely.

I'm bidding 2008 a not-so-fond farewell myself. I don't know what your particular situation is, but I'll add my hugs to the pile. {{{{hugs}}}}

*hugs!* Oh 2008, what was WRONG with you?

You got any room in that hole?

I did not mean that as dirty as it came out.

*assumes expression of pretend shock and horror* :O

*hugs*

At least the year's over soon. Let's hope 2009 has less of the sucky.

That is a very good hope to cherish! With any luck, 2008 used up the rest of the decade's allotment of suck.

Thinking of you. I hope 2009 brings brighter days.

*hugs you up* Thank you so much! Here's hoping for a better year, yes?

*hugs you* Sweetheart, I've been there, it does get better, I promise!

*hugs* The odd thing is, I have been in this precise place before (oddly enough, three years ago, almost to the date), but it's strange... I know intellectually that was a very dark period for me, but my memory is careful about attaching any specific emotions to it, like fear, sorrow, or panic, and that makes it hard to deal with the current crisis (well, current at the time I posted this; things are somewhat clearer now ♥) with any kind of perspective.

*more hugs* And thank you for the kind words; I really did need to hear them :)

*hugs* *offers cookie*

*noms, because virtual cookies do not go stale*

♥♥♥

*hugs you tight*

thinking of you. <3

*hugs you up* I hope you and Oscar!kitten are doing well!!

I'm so sorry. I wish I didn't recognize your description. I'll add to the broken record chorus here: talk to somebody. Or don't talk, because sometimes rehearsing the whole damned thing is too much work, but just spend some time with them. It won't magically make everything better, but it may make a couple of hours of the day a little less sucky, give you a little breathing room for a while, or if nothing else just a change – something else to think about, somewhere else to be, whatever.

I know when I've felt like that, I just couldn't be bothered to try to find somebody to talk to, because if I had the energy or the concentration to do that, or if I knew how to fix it, I wouldn't be having the problem in the first place. You've talked to us, though, and we're willing to listen, I swear. If you don't have the energy to do any more, maybe you could try just copying & pasting this post into an email to somebody and hitting send, and let them take it from there. Anybody in your address book will do – you wouldn't just watch somebody hurting, whether you know them or not, if you could help, and your friends won't do that either.

Or come back to us, and let us remind you that we like you – we'll tell you it as often as you want, whenever you want.

*hugs you tight*

I hope the new year is better and brighter by a thousand-plus.

*crosses fingers!* All is well so far, now we just need to keep it up for the next 357 days ♥

♥ & ♥& ♥ & *hugs* - I was just about to come tell you I received your card and it made me so very happy, and... well, it needs you need a baby sloth Rodney and a kitten John as much or more than me! *shares all the cute fluffy things in the world with you*. I think good things for you.

*hugs you up!* yay for cards arriving safe and sound! Baby sloth Rodney and kitten John really are the happiest things in the world, I think. The happiest, sleepiest, slowest-moving things ♥

Hide until 2009, while the rest of us keep up our thoughts/prayers/wishes that 2008 will take its evil with it when it unceremoniously dumps us into its successor.

Yes, there were points at which 2008 seemed to be a demon that needed exorcising. Where are sexy Supernatural boys like Sam and Dean when you need them? Sigh.

*sends you hugs and warm cuddles and hot cocoa and a fuzzy blanket to huddle under*

*hugs you up v. tightly!* I hope you are doing well, best Kash! ♥

I wander in here via friendsfriends a lot, and am usually too shy to say anything and I'm a few days late to this post but. 2008 seems to have sucked more than average for lots and lots of us and it seems to have come to a head with the time of year, when there's just so much pressure everywhere.

I really, really hope things improve for you soon - hibernating until you've got the energy to deal with it sounds like a good plan, and all the comments suggest that you've got people waiting for you when you're ready.

*hugs* Thank you so much for your kind words. I was going over my general impressions of the Year on LJ and the year in the life of my family and friends, and it just seems like 2008 was really exceptionally sucky--a lot of people found themselves hit by a whole lot of bad luck. It was hard processing that, I think... I'm by no means a happy-go-lucky kind of person, but even thinking about what the people I know (whether IRL or online) have been through this year was hard.

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